I give so much to others that I’ve forgotten how to receive. So, this year my word is receive. My goal is to get stronger at receiving.
I love giving and providing a space for others so they increase their own awareness. I love listening to another person’s story. I love coaching, inspiring and encouraging. I love helping others see what they can’t see if they are willing and open to listen and learn. But receiving is so hard. I don’t know why. It’s not a good or bad, but I know I need balance.
This week I received two awards from places where I volunteer. I didn’t know I would be receiving one award but I had a feeling I’d be chosen. Thirty-minutes before being awarded I could feel I would have to get up to be seen and be open to accepting and receiving a plaque. I don’t like the attention. I got up and walked towards the announcer to receive the award. Inside my body I was uncomfortable, my skin was clammy and my glasses started fogging up in the corners. I don’t like that uncomfortable feeling. It sucks. However, I am always grateful and appreciative. I’d still rather celebrate others.
People compliment me all the time and I am learning to stop, take a breath and say thank you and let there be silence. It’s uncomfortable for me.
I’m trying to get better.
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